Struggle.

The thoughts that run through our heads, where do they go? Who do they pertain to? Why do we even think them? We know we have a God in Heaven who is greater than all the trials of the earth combined. Sometimes knowledge just isn’t enough. Just knowing isn’t enough. I need faith that God is alive and moving. I want this stone cold heart to break and burst into fire for the living God that was and is and is to come. I want so badly for Him to take my heart and rearrange things. I want to hear His voice as though it is my own, I want to speak only His words, I want to do only things He has planned for me to do. I want to know that I am His and He is mine and that nothing ever can separate us. I want to know that even though I am broken and needy and helpless, that is exactly where He uses His strength. I am nothing without Him. I have nothing if I do not have Him. Everything means nothing if it is not of Him. He is everything, beginning and end. I want my life to be a reflection of His and I won’t let Satan tell me I am failing when I know I’m not. I am a woman of God. He does love me. He makes me righteous and worthy and without Him I am absolutely nothing. He finds my flaws and makes them beautiful. He heals my heart when it’s beaten and broken. He is all of my strength. He is everything I’ll ever need. Because of Him I know that I am His and He is mine and nothing can ever separate us. Because of Him I know that even though I am broken and needy and helpless, that is exactly where He uses His strength. He is Healer, Provider, Savior, Alpha, Omega, beginning and end, Protector, Father, Lover, Fighter for man.